Slow and steady ...
Sorry I've been missing for a while. First, my computer at work was going so slow, I could hardly stand to work on it. Then it spent 3 days in IS while they tried to figure out what was wrong with it. It's back now, and it's working great, but I have a mountain of work that just keeps growing. So there hasn't been a lot of time to post much.
Today's entry is primarily a response to Laurie's post from Monday talking about her slow weight loss. At first I was just going to write a comment, but then I figured it would get way too long, so I'm just using this topic for my blog entry today. No, it's not exactly quilt related, but, oh well! One of those sayings that has stuck in my head over the course of my weight-loss journey is "slow and steady wins the race." Well, okay, but just how slow is slow? I know all of that stuff about how I didn't gain it all overnight, so I won't lose it overnight. That's a given. But what really is a reasonable expectation? I embarked on my journey with what I thought was a reasonable goal of losing 2 lbs. per week on average. For the first 7 months or so everything was moving along just the way I'd planned it. But then it happened - the dreaded plateau! I spent the next 6 months in misery trying to get my scale to budge. I ate more, ate less, exercised more, changed my exercise routine, walked slower and longer, walked faster - all to no avail. I was stuck. Laurie, boy do I feel your frustration because I've been right there. When the scale finally started moving again, it was all at a much slower pace. I've been at this for 20 months now and I truly never would have thought it would take me this long to lose the first hundred lbs. I think if that thought had occurred to me, I might never have started.
But something interesting has happened to me over that time and I've sort of reassessed the goal. When you start losing weight, people are always asking what your goal is. I've always been too embarrassed to actually come out and tell people I want to lose 150 lbs. but there you have it. The thing is over the course of time I've realized that that is not really the goal at all. My real goal is to be a thin person - to make choices like a thin person, to be active like a thin person, to stay a thin person. I've been a fat person most of my life. My body knows how to be fat and it wants to go back to being fat. I have proof of that because I've lost 50+ pounds more times in my life than I can count, but I just keep putting it all back on and then some more. So I honestly think the slow progress is helping me in the long run, because I'm acquiring new eating habits. My body is learning how to stay at this weight. For me that is a very big deal. I've learned to celebrate the small losses and even staying the same from week to week because any time I don't gain, I've won. Ultimately the hardest battle is not losing it; it's keeping it off - FOR GOOD!







